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Anyway... Say hi to me!

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A lot of the times I feel like I don't get any notes or anything, but I actually do. Most of it contains random stuff like...

Hi Christina!

Your art is really sexy. I really like it. Please let me trace your art! I'm sure I'd get awesomecakes! Is it okay if I upload it?

Yeah, uh, sure... You gain nothing from tracing my art. Well, maybe some haters among my fans, idk. If you find tracers or people re-upping my art (NewPeace @ dA, the site New Peace hosted by lav under her site sugarstars, an-tan @ mangabullet are OK, because that's me or New Peace) tell me. I'll report them. But I don't hate those people. I feel sad for them.

Anyway, sometimes I get more serious stuff. Here are some:

What is it your mother has?

My mom has cancer. I haven't told a lot of people what kind it is, but I'll do that now.
It's in her intestines. It started to bug my mom this spring, but apparently the tumour has been their for quite a while. It took a while to find it and while she was waiting the tumour grew. Now she's going through chemoterapy in hope of making the tumour stop its growth. She will have to go through surgery for a removal of the tumour and depending on the position she might have to remove even her stomach. Besides the the surgery might kill her. The chance is low, but there's still that chance. The tumour my mother has is apparently very unique too. Which I comprehend bad.
Cancer is pretty nasty, you know. Even though we in my family joke about it a lot - "You won't get it, Christina, your brother will. He's gonna live forever, right?" - it's no joking matter. My dad had three different tumours and in the end he died. I might seem sad to people when I speak about this matter, but it's not my grief of losing my father that's uncomfortable, it's the cancer. LOL. I recently got "You look sad when you talk about your dad." and all I said was "Sure". I had burnt my tongue so I had tears in my eyes and then we talked about heavy stuff, so maybe I looked sad, idk.

What is you sickness?

Ever since June 2008 I've gone through check ups, but the doctors still doesn't know what gives me chest pains and breathing difficulties. But I don't think my doctors put much thought to the pains, though I personally I believe I get stressed from the sudden pains and therefore get breathing difficulties. Maybe I just think too much about the pain, but the pain always comes first...

Do you need to be at the hospital anymore?

I don't know. I will have to do check ups. the 20th I will get my lungs X-rayed and the 25th I will get my vocal folds checked. From the ECGs/EKGs (whatever you know better, idk) there is nothing wrong with my heart, so they concentrate on lungs and throat. But between the checkups... who knows if i get in so much pain that I will have to go to the hospital.

Are you on any medication?

I'm supposed to be on painkillers, but after so long I've given up on them. Instead I feel pains more or less everyday. I have been on random medications for a while, but none have helped so I was taken off of all of them.

You have pains? Where? And do you have any other problems?

The places I nearly always have pains:
My left whoulder
My wrists
My ankles
My left foot
My fingers
My knees

The places that doesn hurt less often:
My chest
My head
Around my right eye
The rest of my legs

The place where I occasionally get pains:
My belly
My arms
My toes
My ribs/sides
My throat/neck

I also have coughing, small bleeding wounds, nosebleed, runny nose, breathing difficulties, seeing difficulties, fever, migraine, headaches, bad blood circulation (or whatever it would be in English)...
Uh... I guess that's it? Why do people wanna know these things, honestly? I have gotten questions about my period too, but I think I won't answer those. >___> Those CAN'T be serious ones, right?

Anyway, take cancer seriously! >: And take care of your healths! Don't do like I've done. Just because you DON'T go to the doctor doesn't mean your healthy. I know I ain't. I should had gone when I first started to get pains, but always thought they'd just disappeared. especially if you have long term pains you should visit a doctor or if you can't think of any reason why you have them. I know hospitals are creepy and I hate them myself, but I have to blame myself for not going there earlier, and I don't think anyone deserves to be in pain for a long time just to go through examination after examination and still not know why they have their problem. So, if not for your sake, do it for me. Go to the hospital! >':

And all the time while writing this I listened to "Kimi wo Nosete" from the "Hatsune Miku BEST ~impacts~" album by Miku Hatsune on repeat. LOL.

so now I'm back at my place and I'm streaming again! Please come by and say hi!

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I saw ~Stultuscaudex doing this and it seemed fun, so... >___> We'll see how many of my poor children that will have to go through this until I'm tired of doing it. XD

Rules:
1. You must choose only ONE of your OCs. Do it again if you wanna use another OC.
2. Your OC must answer every question as truthfully as possible.
3. Title the journal as "OCs Quiz (your OCs name)".
4. When you're done, tag as many people as you want.
5. Have fun!!!

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1. Hi! What's your real name and nickname?
I don't have a name, actually, but I'm called Lucifer. Some in the council here in the demon world calls me Shadow.

2. Interesting... what's your current age?
Old enough to be called a paedophile nonetheless the person I would have a relationship to.

3. Uh huh. What's your favorite food?
I like ice cream a lot, actually. It's a very wonderful thing you have in the human world - did you know? But I rarely eat anything and if I happen to get food from the human world - which is a lot better than the ones in the demon world - I tend to find some human who needs it more than me. Cake is very nice too, by the way.

4. And your favorite drink?
I guess it's water, because it gives life to humans. Humans are also a wonderful thing. I also, however, like soda. Yeah, I have a sweet tooth.

5. Confession time! Who's your crush/lover?
I don't have a lover, nor a crush. I have lived for too long to actually feel like love's anything special. But I actually love everyone. My dear demons, my dear humans, and even the angels.

6. Aww! Have you two kissed yet?
As I mentioned, I'm too old to feel love is anything special, but I have kissed quite a few... You'd say I am a player if you heard how many, but then again, I'm very old.

7. Classic question! What's your favorite color?
Mine is the divine colour blue, but I also like red.

8. Who's your favorite author?
I love a lot of them, so it's really hard to say who. I've read so much throughout my life and I have so much left to read... Can you come back after the worlds collapsed and everyone have died so I can finish reading all books? But I really hope the world won't collapse! I would feel so alone.

9. Now what's your biggest fear?
After all these years I don't really fear anything... Beside maybe mutations.

10. *stifles a giggle* I'm not laughing *bursts out laughing* Sorry. Any siblings?
I guess I could say I have 3, but at the same time I'm a the only child... It's hard to explain. Complicated family... or something like that-

11. Almost, it's only twenty questions. Who's your hero?
Well... I wish I could say someone, but it's really hard. Can I say Albus Dumbledore from Harry Potter? That's one great man!

12. Ok, who is your worst enemy?
I don't really have any enemies. People hate me, dislike my ideas and tries to kill people around me, but no one would try to do anything to me.

13. What would you do if your hero and your worst enemy got together?
Well, as I mentioned I don't really have any enemies.

14. Interesting... what would you do if you met your creator?
Uh... I can meet them? O___O That would be sweet! I wonder how they look like? Like air, I'd reckon.

15. Okay, I'll contact them right now. Done! Now, what do you want to be when you grow up?
I can't really grow up anymore... But if I could... I'd like to die, I think.

16. What's your worst nightmare?
I think it's to grow sexual organs. I mean... seriously! I've never had any to begin with, so that would be creepy as hell!

17. What's your lifelong dream?
Lifelong dream? That would be one eternal dream, I guess. I don't have one, actually. I don't think I ever had one.

18. What would you do if your lifelong dream came true?
I don't know since I don't really have one - right? - but maybe I'd get a new one? I have such a long life anyway.

19. Ok, where's your favorite place to relax?
Nature. Not that there's a lot of that anywhere anymore. I mostly go to the desert to relax, since that's one of the few places I can get rest.

20. Last question! What do you spend most of your time doing?
I work to make the laws of the demon world work, I purify the air so demons are able to breath, I do some healer stuff, I work in the council, I help the King... The list is so long. Basically it's work, I guess.

Before the quiz starts: I finally got through the prologue on Heart no Kuni no Alice! F YEAH!!!!

I saw ~Stultuscaudex doing this and it seemed fun, so... >___> We'll see how many of my poor children that will have to go through this until I'm tired of doing it. XD

Rules:
1. You must choose only ONE of your OCs. Do it again if you wanna use another OC.
2. Your OC must answer every question as truthfully as possible.
3. Title the journal as "OCs Quiz (your OCs name)".
4. When you're done, tag as many people as you want.
5. Have fun!!!

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1. Hi! What's your real name and nickname?
My name is Kuyu Espiritu and I have no nickname.

2. Interesting... what's your current age?
About 500 years.

3. Uh huh. What's your favorite food?
I like oranges. I rarely eat them though, since you rarely get that here in Keinal.

4. And your favorite drink?
Fresh water. Another rarity in Keinal.

5. Confession time! Who's your crush/lover?
I love Zero. I love him a lot.

6. Aww! Have you two kissed yet?
No, i'm too shy and he doesn't love me.

7. Classic question! What's your favorite color?
My favourite colour is green. Sadly Odina's hair is green, so I don't know for how long more I'll like it.

8. Who's your favorite author?
We don't have authors here, but I like Shakespeare.

9. Now what's your biggest fear?
I don't really know. There's a lot to be afraid of, so it's hard to say one.

10. *stifles a giggle* I'm not laughing *bursts out laughing* Sorry. Any siblings?
No, because I'm born from a spirit, unlike other demons.

11. Almost, it's only twenty questions. Who's your hero?
I don't really have a hero, but I guess the King's a hero figure.

12. Ok, who is your worst enemy?
That would be those who dislike me for not being a "real" demon.

13. What would you do if your hero and your worst enemy got together?
I don't really know, this question is too hard.

14. Interesting... what would you do if you met your creator?
I don't have a creator. Or if I have one, it should be the humanspirit I was born from, but that human is dead... So I would get very scared if i met them.

15. Okay, I'll contact them right now. Done! Now, what do you want to be when you grow up?
How can you contact them if they're dead? *didn't notice the actual question at all*

16. What's your worst nightmare?
That Zero will change his mind on whether or not I'm a demon or not and kill me.

17. What's your lifelong dream?
To get a place where my kind can live peacefully without being scared.

18. What would you do if your lifelong dream came true?
I would be very happy.

19. Ok, where's your favorite place to relax?
Wherever Zero is and Odina isn't.

20. Last question! What do you spend most of your time doing?
I sit in the council or collect souls.